Balancing out November

Well, I’m off onto another doctor’s adventure! Again, in search of someone who can help me in my quest for regaining my energy (my struggles with chronic fatigue) and some assistance for the menopause journey that will be: the rest of my life!

I was hitting a wall with the doc I was test-driving last winter. It just wasn’t working the way I was hoping; and thus, I was back on the search-trail. I will stay a bit more reserved with this ‘new’ one – because, honestly… I got pretty excited about the last one! Then, it just wasn’t working out. But I figured out the why. It was because it’s actually been a few years since I have been in to see anyone in the first place, I have been struggling with this fatigue for so long – it was exhausting (LOL!), and when this one said – ya, sure… I can totally help you out with all the menopause stuff! Well… You bet I got excited! It didn’t take long for my excitement to fizzle though… the realization came quickly that – nope… this is probably not going to be a relationship. It doesn’t take me long to see red flags and feel the discord in situations. And since I am no stranger to getting up and leaving because it don’t feel right… this is no different.

I think I might be a ‘speed dater’ but with health-care and doc’s, or naturopaths. ‘You gotta kiss a lot of frogs…’ comes to mind! LOL! There is also the aspect that… I have an established cautionary perspective in regards to ‘health-care’ systems. I already don’t want to have to see someone… but I also know that I actually probably need to and should… see someone!

So, here I go again. Let’s give this one a try! With a bit of a more-controlled emotional ride here… I am liking this one (too). Maybe I like them all at first visit – because the first visit is just chatting, talking about health aspects, and I am reading them as the people they are. I am sitting with them as another person who also has a deep interest in health and wellness, just like me! I, seriously, could talk about this topic with anyone for long-lengths of time! That’s the resonance, chatting with another health-like-minded person! All very exciting! We could just hangout and chat for hours about it all! This is what I am liking! That is the exciting aspect; it’s stimulating, educational, sharing information and conversing!

The shift and/or relationship change is when – now… they want to look at me from the inside! My blood work, my testing’s of this and that. Now… I am shifting from personable first visit of chatting about health and wellness to: they are really analyzing me! LOL! Now… I am paying attention at a different level! Yes, there is always discernment going on, but I tend to be in a more neutral state during a first visit. The second and so on… the shift has occurred, it will be different; I will be in a different, more heightened, awareness as things progress (or not). Someone outside of Me is reading my work, suggesting I should do this or that. And, yes, I do see the irony here. I, myself, like to offer-up advice and health/wellness tips and information to others. But the big difference: I am not charging money, nor am I reading your bloodwork from an office setting. So… not really related or the same – but, yet… maybe a little. LOL! (I don’t know – and now I really am rambling!)☺

When I have an intention set for certain healing/health aspects to be looked at and assisted with – it’s what I am looking for! Plain and simple! This doesn’t change until I change it with feeling better, getting on and being on the healing path (for corrections/adjustments); what does my body, my intuition, my innate talk to me about… is this going in the right direction? Yes? Then, great… assess the situation and the person helping as a whole and continue on (with guidance). If no… then it’s time to disband and for me to move along. It’s not you, it’s me. But it is also kind-of ‘you’ – because we just aren’t meshing.

Getting back to the point: the starting of another health-healing adventure… she seems like a nice fit; an even better fit than many of the previous docs I have seen over my lifetime. We discussed a LOT of things in a short amount of time and I am still unpacking some of that information (2 weeks later). I have done the things that were asked of me, with my consent… blood draw, spit test, etc. Now the wait.

It will be a month before another visit; reading labs, going over suggestions and recommendations… in the meantime, I do my research and dive deep into learning all I can with any new/current info I gather or is sent my way.

She set me up with trying out an estrogen patch. I am currently giving this method a go. I have been utilizing a lotion/cream estrogen (this year) but was finding it to be affecting my skin and really wanted to find an alternative. Without digging deep on the lotion-products list of ingredients… I actually didn’t really need to. There was definitely something in its base that was causing a skin reaction with me. I can probably guess: it’s in the nickel family/metals????? The pros were outweighing the cons though. If I can have hot-flash free days and not wake up in the night dripping with sweat – I’ll take it! I will just deal with the breaking out all over my body! And I did! Frustrated and annoyed by it all… but I wasn’t about to stop giving my body some estrogen!

So far, the patch method has been going good. It’s too early to really tell - but I am not having any terrible reactions. Along with the patch is a progesterone pill that I will be taking before bedtime. Since it supposedly makes you sleepy… it’s a bedtime pill. Again… just taking the notes on all the feely-feels happening now.

It’s interesting, but also very divinely timed, that this is all taking shape during this beloved solar Libra season (Oct 31 to Nov 22). Fitting because there is the ovaries aspect that is related to Libra.

On that note, how are things going (with all of this) ascension-wise:

First up, I am continually working on the removal, clearing, and releasing of the Lunar matrix in/on/around/through me (and all the levels/layers going on there)! This is no small feat, as this particular matrix is one of the biggest, densest, shadow-bodies affecting us as a humanity and the earth; and will take some time. It’s part of the package-deal of what I’m here to be doing! Because I am working with/through the ancestral miasmas and a lot of ‘sticky-gunk’ in the family line… it’s not just me that I am working on!

The ascension brings about deeper work; multi-pronged avenues, it’s never cut-n-dry!

As I work on the healing aspects of the Lunar issues (female enslavement, control, ritual/abuses, programming, manipulations, breeding, etc)  – and thus, my female anatomy, I give space and meditate a LOT about this area of my body and the energy center(s) related (specific and non-specific). Each piece of information gathered, collected, cellular memories activate/emerge or ‘sent’ directly to me is all related to the bigger picture, the deeper picture… from Me and to the family. This lunar stuff is an interesting one – because it runs sooooo deep and it’s in everything! Hahaha… reminds me of something like – corn syrup: it’s everywhere and in everything! And a sticky little shit too!

Anyway…

Menopause on the ascension path… I already know it’s all very interesting and will further be so!

I am also getting more involved with the astrological shift that has already begun. Corrections are happening all over this Universe (and beyond) - this includes stars/constellations and planets, not just us here on earth. I have been developing a deeper connection and relationship with the corrected, and correcting, zodiacs. This will most certainly be on-going. I allow the energies of the ‘season’ be this under-current that guides; it’s also helpful knowing what exactly the ‘vibe’ is happening on the larger scale.

The corrections of Libra are now, and one of the physical body parts of this ‘season’ is the ovaries. The Natural Law that is in correlation with this time is Cause and Effect. I am living through/with this now as I undergo my beginning journey with having more/deeper understanding (and action steps) of my hormones (for one thing), for example the estrogen patch (and progesterone pill). Cause and effect… yes! This is just one little piece to my puzzle; so many moving parts!!

I have also been 'decoding' the marriage (couple/unity) energies that are currently weaving through my coupledom with hubby for this year. Gaining some understanding of the marriage upgrades and coding (couples updates) happening has definitely brought some clarity on the shifting, change, an adjustments we are going through individually and as a couple. Masculine-Feminine, Holy Father - Holy Mother, Christ-Sophia; also part and parcel to the polarity healing. It’s been good as the road smoothed out these last few years (slow and steady, with patience). It’s the bumps in the road we tend to hit as we experience ‘things’ in our physical vessels. From integrations, assimilations to the releasing, clearing, and bringing about the harmonization; thus, balance (sounds Libra to me!).

My right side; right ankle and foot! His left side, left hand… it’s interesting stuff and I seriously have no idea how long this will carry out. Tending to my right side with doing all the TLC things - including my newly developing relationship with a chiropractor has been shifting the layers (of Me) with a little bit more grace!

But will say – I hope it wraps-up soon because foot issues really do put a buzz-kill on things.☺

*Lovely Libra art/graphic courtesy of Pixabay