Lunar Aries into Solar Pisces

My life and times as of late. Doing the work of cleaning up and clearing out Lunar/shadow as I integrate and assimilate my Solar BEing-ness. As the stars continue to align and correct, it affects us all. Astrology is changing and what used to work won’t anymore. Sounds like parts of my body! This is multifaceted and I am definitely feeling the feels!

Especially the physical body!

Recently, I blame a lot of stuff on menopause… but it’s more than that, I know. But for where I am currently in this vessel – it’s easy to place the blame on all-things-menopause. It’s at the surface, right in-my-face, kind-of obvious, and dare I say it: it’s also kind-of trending right now. Trending – because us women are openly discussing it. We’re not being shy and timid about the topic at all! This is no longer our mothers/grandmothers menopause. And in all seriousness, not really a ‘trend’ because it has been around forever. It is/was misunderstood - then a cloud of doom hung over it; thus, loathing that part of the female journey because that’s where women went to age ungracefully and shrivel up and die.

It is however, now getting the attention, care and support it has always been needing.

I think that the mass amount of the female population is either now entering or heading there – all at the same time. This is a huge wave and considered a ‘loud voice’. There are millions upon millions of GenX and Millennials in this menopausal shift right now. And trust me, we will not sit and be quiet about it. Crusading and action steps have ensued!

This is one of the best make-overs we’re all going to witness and I love it! But while this is in its own transformative years, so am I.

So, when I get ‘hit’ with something, I will wallow in its pain for a bit (sometimes way too long), then have enough of it… this party needs to end! WTF is going on here?! My deeper work begins.

Some things seem to be short, sweet, and to the point (LOL!) and I will also have some big-baddie that wants to hangout and cause trouble! I unpack this – and come back to the fact: this wasn’t going on ‘before menopause’ (…was it??) – only after… or right now!

So, it’s the meno!

It’s both menopause… and ascension! Oh boy – what a time to be alive, eh?! The Divine timing of it all. My plate feels full though – but I seem to pile on more! Is that called - bloat? I feel bloated.

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I was pondering the possibilities of what project Me I could work on this year. I like to set an intention, or try to. More often than not – I keep things a little vague so that I can go with the flow once things get going. I love a good project, activities, things to work on, improve, learn a few things and better mySelf! This goes for anything I am working on – arts, crafts, garden, or my health, healing.

I also realize that I am officially at the point where every year – is going to be a menopause year. It’s where I am, in this physical vessel.

But… it’s what I can or need to be doing within that. A game within a game, picture in picture… whatever you wanna call it – it’s a ‘year within a year’, a cycle within a cycle; and even the: as above so below.

Health, healing and flowing with ascension aspects while figuring out my operation manual on how to work this (my) physical vessel as I, basically, am bifurcating right along with the planet. Splitting ones-self from the old world while stepping onto the platform of the new… the ‘ripping apart’ part… well, I feel some of this stuff!!

There are moments when the integration of updates and corrections are being felt in the body – these moments can have me bedridden at times! And seriously, finding words to even describe… not easy sometimes.

Physically – the female body has been so suppressed - we’re already at a loss (mentally and emotionally as well). The lack of information, support, nurturing, care, or even ‘giving 2 shits’ about the female and her body is an epidemic crisis! Again, because I say this often, thank God this is changing Now!

In order for me to sum-up and assess where I am in my current now – and how things are truly going for me – I did some looking back; recalling the years leading me up to certain points of whatever ‘it’ is going on for me, my body, my health. That ‘point A’ to ‘point B’ kind of stuff.

I was going over/thinking about my last decade (2 actually)… the last two 5 year cycles, plus this one we are currently in. Realizing that this is the ‘last year’ of this cycle. And when I say cycle – it’s because we seem to be in these 5 year sessions as we anchor-in and correct more and more of the ascension aspects – such as the return of our authentic-true Holy Father/Mother and the Christ-Sophia consciousness.

I don’t know about anybody else – but for me – I am noticeably in 5 year cycles. We are bifurcating, splitting from the old world/3D and building the next level – the ‘new earth’. This is going to look different for each one of us – that’s what’s fascinating about this.

We’re all on this same ride right now… but not everyone is going to be seeing things the same, feeling or experiencing like another and we’re definitely not all getting off this ride in the same places or spaces!

Many are bailing early, getting off this roller-coaster as fast as they can; some are dangling in fear and chaos. Confusion is at an all-time high. Some of us are dedicated and committed to getting – if not to the end, definitely as far and as long as God will allow (ya know what I mean?). The long-haulers! Adrenaline junkie but in a good way. Some of us are here to stick-it out and we want to. Because this ride… it’s not for the timid! I feel like I use this ‘ride’ reference often – it’s because it’s a nice analogy for what we are living through. This, along with a game within a game – or side-quest(s), lots and lots of side quests!

It isn’t a straight-shot 5 year path/map, no – why would they be? Personally, I have been in this building-upon mode for many years, this is great! This is ascension aspects. Winding roads, occasional speed bump or maybe even a pot-hole can set me back or slow me down – but with purpose, right? I ‘carry on’ and do my best.

Collectively, density is lifting, veils-are-thinning - the stuck in a cubicle, square linear thinking, is of yester-yore! Drawing and maintaining a direct straight line from A to B doesn’t work (and never really did). There is too much going on and so many moving parts and pieces that, once on your healing path, will have things propelling you forward all while the ‘side-quests’ having you feel like you are all-over-the-place, maybe even moments of utter chaos (temporary though). The deeper spirituality aspects will be taking each one of us to some serious depths; making or breaking (as they say).

I’ve been wading through these seemingly chaotic energies for a long time but this last decade has catapulted me to a deeper-end. And these last 5 years (menopause anyone?) – I tend to get almost pulled into some ‘random’ vortex of whirl-pooling waters wanting to suck me in, down, and out!

I would love to be swimming flawlessly – but this isn’t the case.

I’m still finding myself in some dog-paddle moments especially when some random menopause factor hits me like a ton of bricks. But is it even meno? It can be hazy because I’ll test, ask the questions, get the answers – and they can be both! Meno, or my physicality – brought through from my light-body layers; and Ascension, which is everything - and everything else! It’s actually all One. One big soup right now.☺

So – I really am in a place and space of working with both.

I’m tired! All-the-time! It’s a deep exhaustive fatigue that, as a healer, you have to be conscious of – it will drain and deplete you to nothing-ness.

Part of my work(s) here is healing and repairing deep miasmic issues and this can look like a lot of different things.

So, ya, if my ‘exterior’ legacy (what others see) is that I liked to sleep a lot – it’s because y’all are draining me and I have to sleep – a lot! I won’t even get started on the sleep state where there is even more work going on! (LOL! Funny-not funny) Astral/4D is under construction too.

Talk about no sleep!

I’ve been working on my personal load I’m packing around down here. Cleaning up and clearing out the false matrices, lunar enslavement; programs of viral load, bad bacteria’s, fungal garbage, toxins and sticky black tar like goo. It can take a hot-minute but I’m here for it. Literally.

We’re all bombarded with some sort of slimy crap or implanted stuff of various proportions. No one can be bypassing the negative false planetary-‘net’ that has entangled us all. Yes, there are similarities shared as a collective, in the grand scheme of global gunk, junk and loads - but yet it’s different for each of us. We all got our own baggage (which in the big-picture of things is... all of our baggage, the collective goo).

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As I am wanting to have an intention set for a little something to be working on, have a focus, a project of Self for this year – I keep thinking/feeling that I will be getting over a speed-bump, a bridge of sorts, as I step off this last 5 year cycle and into my next 5 year cycle.

I feel that there are aspects about this overarching concept that I already am knowing but there are just as many unknowns (as per usual). And, of course, I wouldn’t want it any other way!

It’s all them unknowns that keep us on our toes, eh?! It’s also the unknowns that can potentially have us in either a conscious fear or maybe an unconscious/subconscious fear; aka: blockage, a block, the block.

I wouldn’t say that I have any ‘fear’ about menopause, it just is - and yes, it is what it is – but I know I don’t actually like the not-knowing-ness about it all.

This menopause situation is a weird barely-touched abyss that we should seriously have way more knowing about, information, and guidance these days than what we actually do.

Women were never that important. It's been a man's world. This is well-known and definitly not a secret.

My access to information about this phase in a woman’s life was very limited, from the already limited; and the living, tangible, examples (women in my family) I was given were not the best of specimens. I had/have a lot of questions still!

I want to at least have some knowing of all the good stuff, how to handle it/things, what to be doing, etc etc. You know… the successful methods and strategies for a better outcome. That’s all. Is that so hard to ask for?

The only thing we have to compare it all to is the generations before us. Not the best-of menopausal care, shift and change examples were happening while observing the ‘Boomer’ and ‘Silent Generations’ struggle. This is America with its America-ways, mentality, and the action steps it takes… also not the best in decision making.

Other cultures and countries seem to have approaches in assisting the women to and through the shifting and changes with a lot more grace. Applying some of this wisdom, mind-set and action steps are a good way forward. I’ve always loved a good happy-joy ending to movies – I want this same vibe for my personal menopause movie.

I’m ok with knowing that there will be potential action-packed moments, a chase scene if you will (LOL!), and probably a plot twist as I go through this transition; the not knowing. I have to be. I’ve accepted this. It’s called flow, right? A different kind of flow! (LOL! Pun intended)

I would, however, love to be prepared enough to be able to calmly, gracefully deal with any situation my body takes me through; the knowing. And I trust in my Self, my intuition, and guidance; my body knows the way.

It’s my thinking-thoughts-mind that will throw some 3D-thought wrench at me – and yes, as a human working through 3D human stuff… I can get caught, stuck, tripped-up and even loop. These are the moments when pain lingers. I know this. I even recognize it when it’s happening. But guess who keeps ‘entering the chat’ while I am working through aspects of said pain issues?

My thinking-thoughts-mind and its 2 cents.

Work in progress, most definitely!

There are lots of examples out there - how women really can come out the other side of this first decade, especially, of transition (the first 10 years are what sets the tone/stage) with their wellness intact. They carry on with happy healthy lives (or what appears to be).

This is nothing like the family examples I have been witnessing. So, to me, this is part of the family-healing package work I am definitely here to participate in.

Those of us that are here, now, are to be healing generational baggage. This is part of the baggage handed down – and I don’t want it.

In fact, I’ve already been changing this, healing it and am on a completely different path than the women in my family that came before me.

I am embracing my menopausal journey and adventures; this will be running in the background (or more like: the foreground!!) as I am continuing the clearing aspects of lunar-false-matrix stuff. This is probably one of the greatest gifts of menopause – the releasing of periods/menstruation/cycles. It can help liberate the female, the freedom, the feeling lighter and not burdened and bound by a so-called 28 day cycle (ball-and-chain). And if your ball-and-chain days were/are painful and of the most annoying, beddridden, chaotic - or even hemmoraging days like some of mine were - then this liberation is most welcome!

There is some inorganic controls about the breeding program on earth; women enslavement and the false almost-umbilical cord-like attachment we have to the moon. This moon shouldn’t be controlling a friggin’ thing! But here we are.

I digress.

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I feel like I probably should just leave this year open; and I mean ‘open’! My thoughts and feelings are that I have a more focused focus in regards to my art, crafting, creating; this is also plants and garden too (but I’ve never stopped with plants! LOL! I am a plant lady after all!). I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about getting back into this or that… maybe this is when I actually do.

I’ve left my painting and crafty-creating by the way-side these last couple of years. I notice it! I miss it. Around the same time I ‘hit menopause’ – I seemed to have lost the energy, drive, motivation - and this was affecting me at so many levels.

The toll that the menopause shift can do to a gal’s body is varied, but mine really threw me for a loop. Technically, it knocked me flat on the floor. Face down. Barely breathing. And it’s still throwing some wrenches at me.

I know and understand I am working ‘with both’ (meno/bifurcation).

So, calming down that super-focus of I gotta work on something health related all the time, taking that off the front ‘n center laser-beam intensity, well… it’s hard for me though.

And that’s what I’m talkin’ about! I just want to know! I just want to heal! Ya know?!

Health and healing is my drive, interest, passion, desire, if you will.

But allowing this to relax a little bit while I put some energies elsewhere – will be fine. Hyper-focusing on my back or my gut constantly, for example, isn’t always a great thing either.

Stepping back, releasing the grip, can allow some better flow. I know this.

I’ve been practicing the ‘giving it over to God’, Jesus take the wheel, or – innate-body: drive! It sounds simple or easy but seriously, when you have been operating with your thinking-thoughts and incarnated with an abundance of Aries energies… head-strong is an understatement.

I’m also in it right now. And by ‘in it’ – I am currently in protocols and therapies for cleaning up my gut; the H Pylori, the EBV, etc. Therapies for back/spine, hips. There are things going on, things started, that keep me in my body right now.

And that, in itself, is plenty!

This is a year of getting more clarity and answers with all of that. The dedication and working towards the balanced-harmonized microbiome and getting my terrain rebuilt/corrected is going to take some time.

Instead of adding another item to my plate – I will work with and take care of what I’m currently doing.

It’s also the year of my tooth. The path to an ‘implant’ has already ensued.

The irony. Here I am trying to clear, free myself from inorganic/false-matrix ‘implants’ all while putting a physical one in. But when the physical body 3D earth-suit needs some fixing… you gotta get it fixed!

Taking care… all-over-the-place!

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Not having a dedicated or organized plan for a project Me (like my Thoracic Park adventures of last year) is totally fine.

Seriously, I’ve always got a project Me running at all times – you really can’t not when in health-and-betterment mode.

It’s the year of continuing on, and also wrapping-up a few things while simultaneously setting myself up for a more successful menopausal life… the rest of my life.

I truly look forward to what I have in-store for mySelf and where God guides me. I’m working through, to ‘get over’, whatever speed-bump this is. Whatever bridge I am crossing. Some things I know and am very aware of – some I don’t.

I release all menopausal fears, unknowns, misinformation’s, misunderstanding and things… missed. The examples of which I have been witnessing, over my lifetime, are no longer relevant or even pertain to me at my core. All the women before me lived their lives in their own victim-victimizer stories, their own prison cells, their own lack of Self love. This is not me.

I release family-female baggage, trauma and miasma; releasing the sexual misery enslavement and releasing the false Mother. I embrace my now, and I continue to step into the forever-unfolding betterment-path for my greatest and highest good.

There is so much to learn and understand in regards to menopause and the journey of it as a whole (collectively and personally). I’m not alone in this. But I work my piece, I collect my pieces; and gradually, eventually, there will be peace.

Peace is a big word and it can mean different things to different people. But the peace I am talking about is the feminine aspect of it. I will feel and BE in my own peace – as well as, women will once again – have and BE in/of peace. Suppression, oppression, enslavement and all the hindering aspects are being methodically and in Divine right timing released and cleared. It’s a tall order but thank you God it’s happening now.

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