Thoracic Park 5.

Virgo season -

October is usually a transition period; from summer into fall (even though it's technically already 'fall') and with that – our bodies also shifting gears. I do love autumn, it is my favorite. Part of what I love about it is the transition that happens out in my garden. When things are being harvested, plants are closing up shop for their brief, beautiful, short-lived existence; the change and shift is happening. The year of hard-work and the labor of love is coming to a close. This happens every year (for me, because we have a short grow season – there is no ‘fall garden’ or winter gardening here).

When the garden is shifting gears and winding down – I too am feeling it and am right there with them (my plants). The shifting is happening at a slow, methodical pace. Daily, with various garden chores, we get to transition together, peacefully. Giving gratitude and thankfulness as I go. This is my typical annual October month as a whole. But this year – not quite the same.

My physical vessel has something to say about all this! My ego-thinking-mind feels like it’s (it = my body) slowing me down even more so. I’m not a fan of this, and will say – it’s weird, a little frustrating, and is bringing me to that place and space of realization(s) that there is definitely a change and shift within my body that is screaming at me; needing a different kind of TLC.

Sure there is full-on menopausal things happening and this is new terrain for me. But I also know that in simultaneous-time there is a vast-dynamic of ascension energetics at play as well. Things need to be done a little differently this year, this time-around, and as stubborn as I am… it can take a big-move to get me over that speed-bump of resistance and hesitance. It’s not that I am ‘resisting’ change (at any levels) - it’s that I want to be moving and operating my vessel like I used to – with energy, vigor, strength, endurance, ability and agility! Like, how I’ve been living this whole time… up until recently! I am resisting the thought that I am not my 20 year old body. I know this is good to be doing anyway – it’s a mental-game… we are what we think.

I am youthful, strong, and agile! I just need to adjust how I am being and doing the ‘youthful, strong, and agile’!!

I am still having some struggles with my back (and hip(s)). This ‘physical ailment’ has me in super-slow-mo. I already feel ‘dense’ down here, and now I am moving even slower, and with a different stiffness and ache (as opposed to the normal back-feels I’ve always had – the dial apparently went up a notch). Consciously I know and am aware that this really is – bigger than ‘me’. It’s layered and connected to other aspects of Me. I get that at the conscious-level but feeling it through the physical level and body parts… hurts. We are all susceptible to all these feel-it to heal-it’s during this ascension cycle but when it’s actually going on, in real-time, it can be painful and downright annoying, frustrating and can throw me into a bit of confusion! Like I like to say: I’m doing my best!

Early in the month I had a string of days of painful back, some spasms, and thus – being in bed. Ugh! I get it though, I need to just stop. Just stop and be still. So, I did. All while being in pain, having deep conversations with my body and God/God-Self; and many rounds of crying and asking for clarity. (Clarity comes later, when ‘pain’ isn’t trying to control the thoughts – when the brain isn’t shooting signals to body parts and there is moments of calm)

This incident took me down and out for a solid 2 days with days 3 and 4 recovering and taking things super ‘careful’. What was also ‘left for dead’ (LOL! I kid, but seriously…) the garden. And I had to be ok with that. I was but yet I wasn’t. Hard to explain, so I won’t. To sum it up – there are things that need to be tended to at this stage of gardening – like any/all stages, right?! ☺

I guess there are things that need to be tended to for Me, personally – right now! Not now, my plants need me is a funny t-shirt but also kind-of real and true! LOL!

There is a mother/mothering aspect about me (and most mothers in general) that I/we tend to offer-up our Selves to others needs before our own - our kids, spouse, pets, family, plants ♥… the list goes on. We are nurturers but forget to tend to our Selves. Well, it’s not that we forget to – we were never really taught to, allowed to, or even nurtured and supported to collectively. It’s a whole-thing that goes back to the enslavement days of the female/feminine energies, Goddess entrapment, harnessing, manipulation, breeding programs, sexual misery and that whole debacle (that thank God is being corrected, healed and repaired now!). As an individual, currently incarnated as a female, that is part of the collective – I feel this to heal this in my own way.

It’s currently at the surface for observation, witness, healing, correcting, and repairing. Letting things go in order to tend to my-Self (at any given moment for any various reason) has been a learning experience for me over this last decade+ for sure! There truly is a LOT of stuff going on (3D inorganics and reversals) that does not need any more energy given to it. Unplugging from the Lunar control is a big-deal and I personally feel that when entering menopause – this is a great time to truly untether oneself from this matrix. So, ya, there are lots of things that one can let-go-of (individually and as a collective). This isn’t the plants tho – got to make that clear! Plants are and always will be Gods creation that is a beautiful energy transference! I am talking about ‘the stupid stuff’ – and for each of us – that level of ‘stupid’ will be different.

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About mid-month our kiddos were home for a visit – and they, bless their hearts, helped me out by getting the bulk of the garden ‘ripped up and out’! The vibe that was happening for me was kind-of like a ‘shocking’ whirlwind day of some chaos and confusion; almost similar to my earlier day(s) of lying in bed with my back in spasm-mode, feeling a bit helpless and with some uncertainty during the moment! This day, albeit a brief moment in time, of trying to have some sort of ‘control’ out in the garden was an interesting one!

It was awesomely good that I had many hands making quick work – but there’s a ‘but’. I couldn’t be at several locations at one time giving guidance and saying what stays, what goes; dahlias need to be dug-up not yanked out, etc. This would be noticed after the fact, after the tornado of help had gone through. Within about 4 hours – it was done. Boom! 90% of the garden was gone! Oh my! That was fast!

Appreciative and thankful because in all seriousness – I would still be trying to get my fall garlic planted at the end of the month! I did feel, during the process, like things were moving pretty fast, and had several moments where all I could do was stand and stare at my kids chopping things down, ripping plants up out of the ground and throwing stuff in a pile! It was surreal. Those movie scenes where the person is standing still while the background blurs with fast moving action… that was me; that’s what it felt like.

It would be the days after – heading into the garden to keep plugging along with getting this area put to bed for the winter that I would be like – well, that’s gone, that got pulled and didn’t need to, I didn’t get to get the seeds off of that… oh well. The clean-up from the clean up might be just as much work! Again… thank you kids! I do love and appreciate it all! And even though I am currently still processing this – who knows – maybe this is actually the kind of garden clean-up I should be doing!☺ Bam! Done, Gone! Mmmmm… no. I don’t see it. I am way too methodical to do this style of gardening every fall.

Speaking of being methodical…

I am still attempting my little concept and project of traveling down my thoracic spine, working with the zodiac, and focusing/intentions of – whatever healing work shows up for observation. I do like this idea of it all – but this current month (which is the continuation of last four+ months) – I am wondering if this methodical approach might actually be: moving too slow!

I mean, Leo season – where I supposedly was going to be working with my T4 – dropped me all the way to the T11 and 12! That’s the ‘end of the line’ of thoracic vertebra! I dropped to the bottom like a rock! I have tendencies of doing things like this in other aspects of my life; so, it’s not completely out of the ordinary for me. I mean, the garden clean up activity, for example – straight to the end, boom! Like a rock, dropping to the bottom, it’s done! But not really. Buttoning things up for a long winter is now going on.

It’s just a quick/sudden shift in focus; changing my approach from that ‘done’ moment - forward. Popping-up over that speed bump; it can be quite the bounce! This is most likely a similar kind-of thing.

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There is correlation in the flow of the laws of the zodiacs – Leo: startin’ something because it shows us our stuff. Virgo: working with God/Source in the transmuting and purification of it; receiving guidance, answers, help to get us to ‘the other side’ of it. It’s a filter/filtering system that is always on-going.

We are constantly filtering, transmuting, and ‘cleaning up’ the energies. So, when energy gets stuck (in our body somewhere) it can bog us down. Even though I am setting intentions of having a focus on my back, thoracic zone for this project Me, I know that anything can show up, anywhere, at any time!

I gotta say – in this current-now-moment, as I work on the writing of this posting, I don’t think I can pin-point anything solid for me and in my healing activities.

I feel like I am smack-dab in the middle of some stuff. In-between that point A to point B. Which is fine and well, and for this month – I know and can see that I am in-process… it is a good thing. It is actually fitting and aligned to the cosmic energies of the now.

I am in-between the ‘hurt’ and the ‘repair’, in-between ‘visits’/sessions and appointments – learning things, educating myself, doing and getting some things done, tests going… etc. All while going where the flow-of-it-all takes me. Even though my intention is to have a thoracic focus at the T5 and all it brings me, it’s the T11 and 12 that have my attention; and the overarching awareness of my body, in general, is my bones/structure and their health as a whole.

This circles me back at the menopause stuff. ‘Stuff’ because it is so varied and seems to be something different at any given moment. Menopause and ascension – what a whirlwind ride!!

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On to some bullet-points!

The T5 and some Virgo:

T5 = Liver, Solar plexus, and Blood. Relations to/with gallbladder (T4). Liver conditions, circulation, blood pressure and arthritis.

So, I am noting that there actually is some T5 hanging-out with me this month (and all months!). The T5 is where I usually feel the ‘start’ of any pressures/stiffness and constriction that builds-up, or is just always there but can intensify depending on my days activities. To say that the T5 is part of my package-deal that is just one of the constants – always being felt, has pressures, gets popped/cracked (along with T6 to T9 or 10) almost on the daily is accurate.

Spiritually and angelically – this is also the body-zone where our wings reside. As if we humans/collective didn’t have enough trauma and damage going on. I, at my own personal layers of identity, took some things to another level!

Trauma to the back, impact, injury, and then ‘walking-it-off’ most my life – this is the epitome of paying the price later for not tending to things when they happened! Oh, if only my younger Self knew what to be doing! It’s ok, I’m here, now. <3

The solar plexus activities were very noticeable during Leo and are on-going. The fact that I am always liver-loving and also doing my best at offering blood support is also accurate. Maybe the zoning-in-on T5 and its connections/nerves/systems aren’t a heightened-focus for me right now because it/they (liver/blood) seem to always BE an awareness/focus for me in general/as a whole.

I developed the deeper relationship with my liver at least 2 decades ago. It’s when I can recall doing some of my first flushes/cleanses and detoxes. Interestingly enough – also around the same time of my mother’s passing.

Does this have a lot to do with family/ancestral lineage/heritage healing and repair, yes. Does this have a lot to do with my path-cutting journey and mission work here and now, yes. Is this also in relation to cleaning up and clearing out karmic burden and miasma from all-directions, also yes.

As I work on mySelf, my body/healing, and connections to/with the solar zodiacs, seasons – it’s working with the Natural Laws. For reference I find it useful, helpful and resonant to check-in with the body of work at ES, energeticsynthesis.com for bullet-points about these correcting/corrected galactic zodiacal cosmic frequencies. As this ascension cycle progresses and ‘stars align’ on the constant spiral of no-time – more information is being gained, available and shared; shift, change, upgrades, and corrections are happening. This beautiful info is shared there and I find my-Self synchronistically in-tune and resonating with the current, on-going, fabulousness of it all!!

For a quick look – from the ES glossary – this is last month (Sept) and this month (Oct) energies:

Physiology Correlated to the Galactic Zodiac

Leo - heart, dorsal region of spine, spinal cord, aorta, superior and inferior vena cava, thymus.

Law of Suggestion - Essentially, this means we are the sum total of our accumulated thoughts and beliefs, what has been suggested to us through spoken words, our direct experiences and interpretations of life, the culture we are exposed to subconsciously, Consciously and through the intelligence of our spiritual bodies.

Virgo -abdominal region, large and small intestines, lower lobe of liver, spleen, duodenum, thymus secretions, peristalsis of the bowels, pancreas.

Law of Response - This law means that when we genuinely seek guidance and help from the spiritual-energetic realms, and we pray or ask directly for that guidance and support, that we will always receive a response. It is our responsibility to learn how to listen to the whisper in the stillness of our heart for that direct response to our question, or allow ourselves to be in beginner’s mind to receive the answer to our request. We must ask directly and state our request for help as clearly as possible, with loving Vibrations.

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We truly can be clearing up our Leo (and previous seasons) with the vibes of Virgo.

I’m a meditator, muscle tester, pendulum swinger and intuition guided kind-of gal. That’s the indigo-Piscean that I am. But it’s my Aries thinking mind that likes to ‘know for sure’ even though I truly already know; maybe get a test ran, see some evidence in that black-n-white mental 3D game played down here.

I’m a free-spirit and creative-flow but simultaneously like to look at the ‘core’ of things, see what’s going on here, do deep dives and get the research, the truth. I’m big-picture but also want to see the structure and foundation of which it is all built upon. This is where I find my-Self sometimes; and most often with my physical vessel and body parts.

I have innate knowings; I know deep in my core that it’s ‘this’ or ‘that’… but I am curious to an even deeper level and actually want to see more about the ‘this’ or the ‘that’. This isn’t for all things and everything – just stuff that grabs my attention and/or tends to linger. Yes, I already know… I just do – but dang… my thinking mind wants different. It wants tangible. There’s curiosity.

This is where appointments come in to play. Seeking assistance from another helpful soul.

As a ‘loner’ and someone who apparently feels I can do this myself, I should/need to do this myself, and if you want it done right – do it yourself (LOL! Thanks dad for drilling that one in!!) - another aspect of my healing-health-wellness journey is to allow others to help and assist me. It’s all built on trust. Finding the ‘right people’ can be a bumpy ride all unto itself. I am currently trying to and hoping to build a (new) relationship with a doc that ‘gets it’. Fingers are crossed that she is my menopause council as time progresses.

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So, October = Menopause ‘awareness’ month… in alignment with Virgo!

And within October’s menopause month is a world Menopause Day (18^th); World Osteoporosis Day (20^th); its Family History month, Emotional Wellness month – bringing awareness to all kinds of things. To me, the above mentioned all relate. It even relates with the aspects of the T5 and Virgo: connections to/with the liver, blood and solar plexus. Fascinating!!

Even though I have been feeling like I am in-between right now – I am very OK with that! Because the (point of) my moments of ‘pain’ (signals), or the what-evers that is happening now – is leading me to the places and spaces for healing work to transpire. Our body is a map and a guidance system. I am trying to follow where it’s taking me.

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Well, I close out Virgo season with an appointment with my doc. Looks like my November (and Libra season) is going to be busy with session work and processing! I’m going to be having some labs done and these various captured-glimpses of me usually ‘trigger’ something!

First I do the ‘thing’, then get the results, and I already know I will be going in to some deep dives with Self, my body, and opening some doors for healing work to continue on.

Yup, looking forward to it! Bring on the Healing!

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