Thoracic Park 4.

Cancer to Leo –

Moving down my thoracic spine… (healing and with deeper connections along the way).

This ‘project Me’ I have been experimenting with has been going well, I guess. Because really, there is no set rules or even any structured guidelines. Just pure Love and intention to allow. If that isn’t vast, vague, and flying by the seat of my pants – I don’t know what is! LOL!

Seriously though – this is about taking another/different approach and just seeing what happens! I love this kind of experimenting! Pure intuition, following guidance, trusting and organically do-ing! Experimental healing adventures and journeys is kind-of my thing (well, one of many things!). Since I’ve always been this system-bucker during this incarnate (good ole Indigo energies!) I question everything. So, even while I could be in the middle of ‘one way’ I am always asking questions, because things are always changing! Seriously!

Meditation and communication with Self, the body, and direct-line to and with God-Source is the ‘pill’ everybody seems to be chasing and searching for - but not many actually truly ‘find’. Keeping humans on the hamster wheel is all by design. And those that are mind-controlled to believe in the reversal-systems will be forever on their hamster wheel; spinning and running to nowhere – or their own personal abyss. They need the wheel to throw them off so they can stop and take a look! Yup, some will just get right back on that wheel seeking for things to be the same; while some others might stop and question why… why did that happen? And this can potentially send them off into that infamous ‘rabbit hole’ heaven!

Even while in the thick-of-being on one’s spiritual healing path and journey… we can also get stuck. Those that think the spiritual-healing-path is blissful and gets easier… LOL! The inner to outer and outer to inner has a LOT of dark alleys with shadow body work we have sequestered away for eons! The black-goo is deep and sticky! We might be getting the surface layer off and released but there can be residuals lingering that can still keep us hindered and bogged down – for whatever ‘it’ may be. It happens to the best of us, er… all of us!

Because we are multidimensional layers deep – the onion peeling can have moments of feeling a little lost or confused. It’s entering that next level of healing for that same trauma/drama/miasma situation. There is more to it! But some will feel that they are ‘done’ after getting that first layer off. But to their surprise – it really only just got going! Layers deep, levels deep… I’ve come to the conclusion that a lot of things (not all but most) seem to be a few layers; with new awareness’s that bring about more releasing, forgiveness, and neutral-observation work(s).

A huge part of this journey is taking your own health and wellness into your own hands – it is the way. Following your intuitive guidance is kind-of a big deal. Even this thoracic experiment I am doing could suddenly stop and be done. At this point, though, I don’t see it stopping (yet-??) but I also am totally ok about it all if it does. Gotta be able to let things go, ya know?

With no plans of stopping though☺ I am in my T4 zone with Leo season. Leo is the core, it’s 5D, it’s digestion the solar plexus and fiery. And the current energetics going on, from my understanding, have a lot to do about 5D corrections, connections; soul and our perceptions, mental, thoughts/thinking, brain and our bridging between these aspects of Self. Lots of integration work going on – and I definitely am sensing, feeling it, experiencing and am going through physical ascension integration/assimilations in my torso area (lower back to hips) as September rolls through.

Firstly, I am feeling like I am functioning all well-n-good as August marched on. ‘Back to normal’ (from the travels)! LOL! There is no normal here. I am meaning that: sleep is going well (or better than it was), diet is getting back on track, the noticeable B vitamins getting back into my system (I wasn’t taking during my travels… oops!) are improving the energy levels; the garden is in-the-thick-of-it, and the body-feels on the daily are a communication system I love and adore! A living, learning, class-room, yes - embracing it fully! It’s interesting… we (my physical body and I) kind-of-sort-of talk when there are travels/trips going on. My thinking-mind has this ‘tune-out’ aspect that tends to take over, I will admit. Thoughts/mind are thinking about so many other things during activities like this. Checking IN with my-Self can get foggy. Until I do something, or have apparently created an ‘environment’, that starts causing problems (like: eating late and heavy, repeatedly; and/or terrible sleep, for example).

It’s not that I ‘ignore’, I just don’t tune-in like I would normally be tuning-in. So, when I get back home… we re-connect and REALLY talk!! Like best friends that haven’t seen each other in-forever! Sometimes – I get yelled at because I was a little too distant and not communicating like we should have been. There is a lot of catching up to do! Two weeks can be a long time of not really paying close attention to each other (well, mostly ‘Me’, not so much my body/systems)! Lots of – I’m sorry’s as well! I’m sorry I wasn’t taking my B vitamins and I’m really sorry I ate crappy! ☺

Anyway… back to Leo and my spine.

Like every year, during the magnetic peak cycle of August along with the 8-8 energies, I tend to ride this energetic roller coaster ride of feels. This year is no different. In fact, this time around things seemed a little more ‘core’, for sure. The entire ‘calendar’ is and will be (duration unknown) filled with some ups and downs, waves, ripples, and downright splash-to-crash ‘disturbances’ as we venture on in the liberation of the planet and our bodies (and the entire Universe(s); as this is all multi-dimensional).

This Leo season as a whole – seems to have been generally alright for me. Not my best but just doable and trying to live through some stuff. Next layer of an onion being peeled for me? More like – finishing up a peeling I had already started (that I didn’t realize that I actually started! If that makes sense?). It was in the last week, or about mid-September, when it was time to ‘tend to’ my situation. I can try to keep humming along and hope this back-ache thing goes away (all while doing all the things for healing).

But seriously, I needed to tend to some unfinished business that was started back in June, before our trip to Greece, when I had my last session-work with my chiropractor. Yes, it was all coming to a head! Boom! The points on my body were now screaming at me! Ok, ok!! I can’t do this all on my own apparently… I am in need of some assistance. I will go back in and have some things assessed and worked on.

I have previously (the last 2+ months) been working through the back ache/issue that is lower on my thoracic spine area. Wasn’t exactly my intentions of ‘jumping’ right down to the ‘bottom’ of my thoracic but here I am. All of Leo and September, for sure, I had barely any focused T4 and that’s ok. If there isn’t anything grand to be working through right there, right now – then there just isn’t. I am being shown something else, somewhere else at this particular time. And that’s all fine and good because …well, I am allowing the where, when, and what at any given moment.

I am feeling things at the bottom end of my thoracic zone while trying to have some sort of focus on anything that might be higher up at the T4. But since I feel like things maybe have been tended to in the upper T-zone as a whole, the group of them 1 through 4. There just wasn’t any magnifying aspects drawing in me ‘in’ there, and specifically during this Now-moment of time, so – I let it go.

T4 is the chest area (just like the other upper T’s), and I feel that I have been doing well here. The T4 (between the shoulder blades area) hasn’t been the one talking to me currently; though I do have some feels in the upper T-zone once and awhile. This is in relation to some neck and/or shoulder stiffness, over-work, etc. Honestly, Pilates, stretching/somatics and Qigong help keep this area relaxed and released. It’s not that I ever really have this ‘weight of the world’ stressors on my upper back/shoulder area, but there is currently a LOT going on around here for us and our homestead. Summer wrap-up, heading into fall, can get pretty chaotic. For me personally, as September brings on all the harvest in the garden… I have a million harvest/gather/preserving activities happening that can take me right into and through October. The kitchen is usually in some sort of chaotic disarray; and, yes, it can look like a tornado went through – but in a good way. Because it’s a short-term situation for the abundance that I am so grateful for. So, ya, I can develop some tension in my shoulders – upper back but these will usually subside after I have been able to get some sleep and release the days intensity.

I was closing out Leo season with a chiro-session that ‘took me to the mat’! She worked me over and I allowed because I really want this mid-back, lower thoracic zone, spasm-point to be gone! What was also happening during the early part of September was my left hip had joined that chat. Hello! You’re stressing me out! I am super tight, constricted and am now going to have to jab, zap, and sting you every time you ‘move wrong’! Well… oh my! You two have buddied-up and are hitting me left and right! Yes, literally! Left hip, right side back.

So, walking into the appointment and describing my issues – she knew exactly what was going on! She said she needs to finish what she started (from the June visit). She knew immediately that I have a couple points that need releasing work done. And then – we went right to it! I almost couldn’t walk out of the office when it was all said and done. It was when I got home – I released it all and had a good cry! I felt like I got punched in the ovaries and a bat was taken across my back. I innately knew this was going to take a hot-minute to recover from! And yes, she does gentler work (as opposed to the first primitive chiro I saw a couple years ago). That’s how out of alignment I was getting myself into.

It would be 3 days of feeling bruised and tender. Another 3 days of things calming back down and coming out of fight-or-flight mode – all while I continued to work on myself gently. Trigger point therapy sessions, releasing deep emotional baggage; sessions with my-Self at some next-level layers! It’s going to be all ok!

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Solar Virgo season has begun and I am recovering from the one session and will be going back in for a follow up. I have set my intentions for the recovery, repair, healing and filtering-out of any crud, miasma, and residuals of lower pain body aspects. This is inner-child, physical vessel, repair at a structural level. But when adjusting to new frequencies, expanding into the next harmonics, integrating with soul, monad, and embodying the God-particles – things are going to get catawampus, off-kilter, and in need of alignment!

I have been feeling like a morphing-butterfly that is working on stuff inside a cocoon these days. The bifurcation happens within our Self, physically, along with our light-body layers right along with the planetary-ascension bifurcation processes. SO vast, so deeply layered – I struggle to keep up; currently feeling like I am just keeping my head above water, it can be a challenge for sure! I thank God on the daily that I am awake, aware, and am able to observe these planetary shifts beyond 3D; and with all this – is also our physical vessels.

Knowing and understanding that this is going on… brings me peace, an innate calm, with absolute trust. I just have to keep doing ‘the work’ and all will be well. I totally plan too, once you get going – there is no stopping! But when we hit these physical-speed-bumps… boy, it’s ‘challenge accepted’!! With trust – it’s pure strength, grit, and determination getting ya to the other side of it. And yes, I’m going to say it: only to discover there is still some more to do! My ‘future Me’ is thanking me so hard right now!

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This is such an interesting time to be alive, on planet, with the knowingness that our consciousness expansion is the main event! I know I am working on other aspects of my Selves, multidimensionally; and as I pick up my pieces… they gotta go somewhere! This means that the old (probably not-even-mine) crud and baggage carried has got to go! Out with the old, in with the new! Understanding that we filter it and transmute through our body is what helps bring a level of peace and trust – as we go through any ‘annoying’ physical issues or symptoms. And this one… this one is annoying! But I love and care for myself, I know this is temporary, I know that I have to feel it to heal it. And right now, I am doing my best!

So, for this particular thoracic park month, I bounced around a bit, and that’s totally ok. For the Virgo season I plan to get right back up there (LOL, nice pun) and see if there is any focus work for the T5. I won’t know until I get going on it, right? Right!

Thank you Leo, you opened a can-of-whoop-ass on me! Now I set the intentions that Virgo season will allow for the repairs, coming back into calm, and alignment with amazing corrections and connections!

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*Pic courtesy of Pixabay