Thoracic Park 6.

Libra season -

I’m working way-more deeply on my bone matrix; it’s becoming clear to me as I progress through my thoracic park adventure, it’s connecting me with heightened-focus to/with my bone matrix as a whole. I knew I was going to be working the bone matrix aspects during this project; and would seem obvious – but my intention was thinking I would be working more on all the what-its-connected-to concept (nerves, organs, meridians, etc) as I spent time with each vertebrae.

The vertebrae itself was just the ‘the trigger point’ (for a lack of a better description) and this ‘point’ was to send me out-and-about through my body per what it was attached to. I do know/realize this is considered a little backwards as it is usually the other way around – and one would tend to look at the organ/system and where it meets the spine. But that’s just not my style! LOL! We’re already living in a reversal matrix, so, it’s time to look at things differently anyway! Since I am on my own roller-coaster ride through my spine/back right now – I’m always asking the questions and getting some answers; not all are in direct-relation to my vertebrae and its connected body parts (in the physicality of my pain body per se). It’s always ‘bigger-than-that’ and rightfully so!

This is death seal removal, bone matrix repair, and ancestral healing - and I need to be doing what I need to be doing to get mySelf on the ‘other side’ of this shift with as much ease and grace, setting my trajectory on my next phases and stage (physically-to-spiritually and vice-versa). This really came into vision, and brought more clarity, last month while I was trying to work on the T5 aspects, all while being sent to the T11, 12 and L1 region (that area was having physical intensity and painful).

I am thinking – I just need to take a closer look here. It’s time for me to buck-up and get an x-ray of my spine; to really see myself from the inside, y’ know?! I don’t really want to x-ray myself, but I probably should for educational purposes!

It’s been a couple decades since I’ve actually had this done. And, boy, did I need to work through this puzzle piece of mySelf. These little things that show up – not as little as one would think; these add up, compound and compile! Mine seem to be smothered in trauma-sauce which makes the little things hard to see, feel, or they get buried completely. What seems tiny or a ‘nothing’ can throw you the biggest BLOCK in your moving forward! So, more session work with mySelf and working through these little ‘blocks’ - very helpful for receiving answers and clarity.

My initial thought was getting a bone density scan, not actual spine x-rays (talk about dancing around the elephant in the room! LOL! I giggle about myself when I look back on some of these things). But after discussions with my doc – she said that in 2 years I can do that. If I insisted on right now – it’s out of pocket and all on me. But in 2027 she’s going to have me do it again anyways. Then it would be the 5 year time-frame of my menopause journey. There is something about the five year zone for seeing how things are going; how you are settling-in. That’s a good time to get some (new) ‘baselines’ for your ‘rest of your life’ kind of thing.

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During menopausal transition (and post-menopause) the estrogen leaves or probably has already left. I giggle and call it an Irish exit. LOL! But seriously though… it didn’t just walk-out without saying a word because it was talking to me, even screaming at times, throughout my entire 40’s! It just seems or feels like it just up and left without saying a word. It pulls up anchor and heads out to the unknown lands of the abyss. This can be quite shocking and even traumatic for the system, our female bodies. Especially since we just don’t know what’s actually going on ‘here’! The fact that we are not tending to this shift years prior is sad.

Of course, we haven’t been given the tools for this phase of life in the first place. It’s been ignored or shrouded, dumbed down, manipulated, gaslit… and not even taken seriously or with any care, respect or love. I was able to witness and observe my mother and grandmothers generation try and live through this phase – and it looked absolutely brutal! It’s all part of the manipulated and enslaved program of death and dying here on this prison planet. Menopause has been that collective march to death for women – until recently! The feminine awakening is afoot; we are rising up, taking the reins (for a lot of things) about our health. These ‘hate crimes’ (because let’s be honest, the male ego has been running the show) ends now!

Thank God for the return of the Goddess energies! Holy Mother has returned, she’s here and crackin’ skulls (but with Love, tough-Love). I grew up in the era of: wait ‘til your father comes home… that is changing, for sure! If you thought dealing with your father was going to be a doozie… oh my!! There is no more waiting for Mother to come home – she is here – and there is a LOT of flipping on the lights and buzz-killing a lot of nasty little parties! Truth has the spotlight; the planet (our Universe) has been retrieved.

While all these distractions are a constant on the exterior/surface, those that are awake with eyes to see what’s really going on: system break downs, collapses, evictions, and clean-up happening at some pretty deep levels are not falling for the controlling play-book shenanigans. Yes, it can seem a bit crazy and chaotic for those unaware but even through the confusion many are starting to see how crazy and terrible the movie they've been watching for so long is the worst! Even sleepy-sheepies are noticing the exposures, clean-up, corrections, and change. The real question is - are they grasping it beyond 'the system'? Everyone one is on a personal journey; some will start connecting dots and some just won't. The planet is in the collective dark night – and this is long overdue! Keep waking up everyone! The scales are tipped in our favor!!

I am thankful for this healing journey - that dealing with my own (seemingly miniscule to the grand scheme of things) personal issues is/has been coming with faster clarity, deeper understanding, and a little more ease and grace with integration (of my layers).

Not without some feels and some ‘pain’ through my pain-body though – because without that tangible feel(s), the map that is our bodies, one could get a little lost down here. And I was… a little lost down here. The veil used to be pretty thick! I’m not saying that everything and all the things have to be hard-core feels in the body; but no matter what, it all flows to/through our bodies; whether it’s physical, mental and/or emotional – it’s getting felt, bringing an awareness, so we can process/transmute it.

Feeling isolated and alone is definitely part of that package-deal for indigos/starseeds while navigating this earth-plane. It’s so dense, heavy, and - I gotta say it: … it’s the smell! LOL! Matrix movie lovers will totally get that!

Having that weird disconnect keeps us seeking, asking questions, wanting truth… we know that there is way more to this life! And the quest for Truth is a constant. Empaths notice and feel this on their front-burner, so – there’s probably a quicker/faster turn in-to spirituality, connecting to/with their heart and their awakening journey. Those that are really blocked and harnessed might sense this (but many just won’t) - it’s on their back-burner. Is that back burner even on? Is it at a very low simmer? Is their stove broken? Do I like using metaphors? Yes! ☺ Seriously though - our body is our guide, our compass, our spirit/soul tracker; it’s our ship, our space-suit, and our temple. Learning how to reside ‘in it’, utilize, read, comprehend and understand it… that’s the math we all gotta figure out for our Selves.

So, on that note… I’m constantly doing my own math, figuring and working my angles. Always taking myself to places and spaces that offers either a little more to the equation or my favorite: flat-out quick results and answers! I do love being in synchronicity and recognize this more and more as I develop my spiritual maturity. I still have moments of stumbling around like a toddler trying to figure out how ‘gravity works’ LOL! But I take my knocks on the noggin’ and keep on truckin’! The spiritual ascension of inscension is a bumpy ride – and I’m here for it!

My bumpy ride of October was taking me to and through a little more smoother road in November.

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Back to my back…

I find myself ‘getting it over with’ and heading into Radiology for spinal x-rays at the beginning of the month. Yes, I’m doing it! I’m really doing it!!

Absolutely painless, literally a walk-in situation, and done in probably 15 minutes! Well,... okay. This was nothing like what my ‘head’ was putting into my thoughts! I left this experience with all the wonderings of: what is my dealio?! That was like… nothing! Even though I still know there is a little something (because you can’t avoid the fact – it is radiation!) but really… I avoided this like the plague for years, decades!

This was a piece to process – and I did.

It’s truly based on my traumatic experience from my car accident. I’ve been storing this in my hard-drive as: terrible, awful, don’t do it/don’t ever do that again, the worst, it hurts, super painful, the drama – the trauma!!… and on and on. My x-rays from the accident were tied-up with all the other stuff that was happening during that time. X-rays were painful because I was in pain! Traumatic because I was in a trauma state. They ‘hurt’ because all the shuffling around that I was being put through to get me to radiology. I mean, when they have to cut your clothes off of you… it seemed serious! One of my favorite shirts to-boot!

The terrible part was the doctor who went over things with me (and my mom) afterwards – which was actually days, maybe a week later. Health care in the 80’s was not ‘instant’ like it is now, that’s for sure! I recall the trip back to the hospital to go over my imaging… it was a whole ordeal and so inconvenient for my parents, for my mom. It was an hour+ drive. It was the last thing on earth she wanted to be doing! So, that of course, set the tone; the drudgery.

For me – it was having to lay down, lay flat, in the back of the Suburban. I felt every bump, pot hole and curve! Not a fun time. I remember my super-slow walk into the building – I was in pain; no curbside assistance for those that need it – nope. 80’s were hard-core my friend! (And people wonder why GenX is so tough, rough and thick-skinned). The doc was young; probably fresh out of college. His delivery was poor; approach about it all was like a Debbie-Downer, Mr. Worst Case Scenario… trying to put me in a wheelchair before I even left my teen years! Ugh! So… ya, it makes absolute sense why I hate everything about x-rays and getting them!

I worked this out with mySelf; there was clear conclusive answers being received. Releasing this past trauma piece was good. There is now forward-propelling movement!

Along with my back x-ray info received; as well as, my battery of tests I am having done throughout the month – all will be gone over and the collaboration with my doc will happen in December during our follow-up appointment.

I gotta say – this is probably the farthest I’ve ever gotten with a doc for getting some things worked on and worked out! And I am so thankful and grateful for her coming into my life right now! All previous docs… I seriously would still be flailing around and most definitely, once again, be out looking for another doc!

I’m filled with gratitude that I have arrived to the timeline of my beneficial health-care assistance collaborator! Because that’s what a good doc should be – collaborating with you about your health aspects; this is team work, and this (so far) has been the team-work I’ve been searching for! I really am my own doctor, but there are times when you need someone to help/assist – especially because labs and other various things in the dynamics of the sick-care system/western medicine require that you have a doc ‘prescribe’/’refer’ and all that hoop jumping that tends to go on out there (with this ‘program’)! I’ve done enough ranting over the years about the crappy system of the health mafia and how debilitating and messed-up it is, so I will not poke that with a stick right now.

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Moving on…

Getting back to the thoracic park adventure, my T6, and its moment in the sun with Libra!

Even though I am not specifically honing in on my T6 with any kind of laser-focus during this time, it is my jumping-off point, and it’s having me diving right back down to the T12/L1 zone (basically, the continuation from last months physical vessel activities).

I’m not completely leaving T6, no. Because this is the zone of the thoracic that likes to lock-up on me and needs to be popped/cracked, released on the daily. It’s also connected to the stomach – and I feel this on the daily as well! (All v-e-r-y connected!! Oh yes!!) There is also relationship with the vagus nerve. So, I still work this but I’m also really doing a lot of hanging out at the lower thoracic T12-zone.

This is my new-ish current ‘pain’ location; and since getting over my inner-child block-hurdle and having an x-ray or two done… I can utilize that info (even though it’s general/basic info (in my patient portal) – it’s a start) and get to work at a ‘next-level’. My challenges/issues seem to be - not where I always thought they were! They are based… down at my base!

Although generalized info was noted, no imaging (yet), there was enough there to process internal knowingness; for me to: 1. Have a good cry, 2. Feel some elation that this is actually not that bad, 3. Feel and know that this can be/will be processed; thus healed and repaired, with dedicated works, Love, and changes, and 4. My chiropractic care just went up a notch as she will also now have some deeper/inner info. And lastly – I can start now, no need to wait for the follow-up… I start here and now! And trust me, I do!

More of this will be unfolding for me as I continue to un-pack all the various aspects of Self. My spinal check-in plus other labs will compile a more well-rounded snap-shot of my current now moment of wellness. My doc might not want to start building my ‘new baseline’ until 2027 – but I want to be building it now.

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The T6, like T5, is part of the solar plexus area; and it connects to the stomach. This is probably my obvious observation going on now – my stomach. My digestion as a whole, past and present, has been sending me messaging. I’m workin’ on it!

I have some oh-so-wonderful (not!!) dealings I am tending to with h. pylori, good ole EBV, a parasite or two, and probably a host of other stuff that are all part of that party. These have been in my awareness for well over a decade+. What’s causing some differences – menopause!

It’s absolutely fascinating how much work, like serious work – estrogen does in our body! When she leaves… it’s like the Tasmanian devil enters and rips-up and throws furniture everywhere!! Don’t know what you’ve got ‘til it’s gone? Apparently!

I know that my entering the menopausal year (the first solid year of no periods) that my body was having such a stressful time, all that shifting, adjusting, changing, that the EBV I was packing around decided to rear its ugly head! ‘Oh, is this vessel in distress? Well, here, let me join in the fun! I’m all about adding insult to injury!’ – gee, thanks EBV… you’re a real trooper! Ugh!

Holy-moly, was I in a serious bout of chronic fatigue – very debilitating! Entering a second year of fatigue and depression was not going to happen – hell no!

I was also in search of a doc at this time; someone who would work with menopause with the respect it deserved. Rare gems are hard to find! But I did find her, and she tested me for EBV – no other doc in my life (and trust me – I’ve seen a l-o-t of doctors!!) has ever even uttered the words, or the abbreviation, of this critter and it’s potentials to me. Is this one of my several problems? Oh yes!

Did I ‘bury the needle’, as they say, in my test results. Yes – I did. If I’m goona do it – might as well go hard-core! Well, good grief! What else can I throw at myself??!! Geesh!

Seriously though, I am thankful that it’s this… and not … that, you know what I mean? I always thank God for my health and wellness and to be going through my stuff with ease and grace and love. And I remind myself – that if this is my ease and grace – I accept! Truly. Thank you God. ♥

So, here I am – right in alignment with the appropriate body parts of Libra season and all my cause and effects that are happening now for me. I recognize and I’m doin’ my best!

And isn’t it interesting that the kidneys/adrenals are right there at the T12 to L1, 2, and 3 region? Hmmmm… interesting indeed! T12 also influences digestive issues in relation to small intestines – when I add this in with my tightness/compression at T6, the stomach, guess what I’ve got goin’ on??! LOL!☺

Math is fun… isn’t it?

*Libra – October 31 to November 22

**Libra rules: kidneys, adrenals, lumbar region, skin, ureters, vasomotor system, medulla, ovaries

***The Law of Cause and Effect - Whatever quality of energy is generated from thought, emotion or behaviors, this combination sets into motion a cycle of energy that must eventually return back to its causal source, completing its circuit. There are many dimensional planes of causation, but nothing will escape the law, because at the end of the cycle all is accounted for. It is up to each of us to understand and make proper use of this law, because on the path of expanding consciousness, we learn that we will have to answer for our actions, we will account for the energy we were given. There is no such thing as randomness, chance or luck, as there is a cause for every effect, and an effect for every cause.         (*This beautiful info is from the energeticsynthesis.com glossary)

Energetically/spiritually – ascension aspect-wise: 7D recoding is heightened right now which relates to the kidneys; thus, for me – my T12/L1 zone - this is accurate (and also with my stomach/digestion and filtration). So, the multidimensional aspect has me working more with the meridians of: triple warmer - or - triple heater (San Jiao), small intestine, as well as my governing vessel. I’m always doing appropriate and innately guided somatics, stretching and trigger point therapies. I’ve gotten back to adding Qigong into my week (I tend to drop this from my routine/rotation when spring and summer hit), foot reflexology and always lymphatics! Since the bulk of my physical-feels are predominately on my right side, masculine side, there is work going on with that. Balancing and harmonizing always sounds simple - until you are trying to actually be DO-ing it! It's multi-faceted and doesn't happen over-night.

As for T6: this is in part with the nadis, the backside of the heart center. I also feel that it is in connection/relation to and with the Christ-Sophia wing building that happens at the shoulders. Also very planetary and into our physical. It can be felt in the upper back, wrapping around front at the shoulders/clavicles. I don’t have any clavicle issues but the upper and mid thoracic is ‘my zone’ of choice apparently. And during Libra, I’m connecting-dots of how this, in particular/personally, has its own cause and effect. My lower T-zone (T11/12) and upper lumbar (L1/2) is sending its affects right up my spine – to the thoracic (and neck) - and also radiating out to the hips. I’m apparently lumbarly-‘curved’ with an arthritic-vibe (according to how I’m reading my own spinal info (until further notice)).

Again, this has me flashing-back to being thrown from a car window: how the heck did the lumbar curve get there – I had to have twisted and landed ‘wrong’.

I was still a developing growing youth, so impressionable to cause and effect then – and still… now! How did I get ejected? How was my body twisting? How far was I launched? How did I land? How many times did I bounce and roll? I still have so many questions as I re-visit my death. My Guardian angel was 1000% there, assisting me to the ground, for sure, because ‘it truly was a miracle’ that I didn’t break anything!

The obvious after-effects is definitely here and now. I am a work backwards kind-of-gal! I have the ‘damages’ list. Now, I want to learn more about the ‘how I got here’ - with more clear conscious-connection, memory recall, knowingness and certainty. Clarity, am I right? I know all of this info is stored in my hard-drive (aka the unconscious mind and cellular memory)… I am patiently, with Love, going through all the files. I know this takes time – and it's part of my package of what I’m here to do.

Since time is an illusion, I don’t feel any rush; it’s just consistent, continual, dedicated mission work that I take step by step.

Integrating and embodying ALL of ourSelves, healing the ancestral/lineage, liberating the planet – no small task, for sure! I’m here to help in the ways that is Divinely guided and assigned. It starts with ourSelves! MySelf! And I continue on…

*Pic - courtesy Pixabay